experiment day 11

Today
7:12 pm

I woke up somewhere in the middle of the sometime today. The tangled sheets were evidence of a thrashing sleep and the half last night outfit and half nothing made clear I don't remember getting into bed. I must have crashed on my couch somewhere between the sun peeking out in the early stillness, which I do remember, and Frodo saving the ring. I'll admit it. When I can't sleep I put on LOR or Potter or some fantasy something that doesn't make me think. With my man out of town, I stumbled into the other room, missing the faint hum of early Sunday ESPN. What day is it? What time is it? Where's my phone?

It was 1:47pm. Which means, I've only been up 5 or so hours. I made a call. I made some tea. I put on my gym clothes and went to spin. There I was greeted with a substitute teacher whose playlist was one long mindless techno euro shit. My body hated me for it's lack of sleep and I hated 'Joe Raver' for every club beat and wild yell. But, I didn't quit and I ended up on the treadmill with my own ipod mix of encouraging songs and depression.

After a quick store run and a shower, I now sit at this computer. Reading over all your 'gratitude.' It really touches me. Your gratitude for your babies, your parents, your husbands/wifes/boyfriends/girlfriends, your health, your silence, your 'p's,' your alone time, your encouragement, your porkchops, your wit, all those little things. I think it will help me sleep tonight. No offense to Gandolf or Snape.

So today, I'm grateful for you.

Comments

[tinkcrzy1972]

Today I am grateful that my husband was at church with me and not stationed on the ship that left for 6 months. He was part of that ship until Thursday. I'm grateful he's home now.

[doog]

I'm grateful that you're finding the will to stay in contact. Every light that shines the darkness makes the sum of the Light greater. Keep shining little candle, a time will come when I NEED your light.

[Felicity]

I am grateful for your honesty and openess, Annie. It's so refreshing.

[qxjit]

I'm grateful. Not for something, but not for nothing either. Just grateful. Thank you, all of you.

[Kurt]

... and we are grateful for you.

[The Domestic Goddess]

Grateful for the old, yucky carpets that I desperately want to replace, but we haven't, because of days like yesterday when an entire bottle of massage oil got dumped on it. If it was a new carpet I woulda cried. But since it's over 25 years old I could care less.

[KatieKatie]

I'm grateful to be extremely tired today because I was up late having a very good, intimate time/talk with my love.

[Fabulous Geek]

I am grateful for beer.

[justme]

I'm grateful for the patience of my family as I fight a really nasty stomach bug.

And I fall asleep to Star Wars (A New Hope). I've done it so often, I find it difficult to stay awake through it now if I actually want to watch. It's like a comfortable old friend. I guess I'm grateful for that, too.

[nashira]

I'm grateful for tangerines.