experiment day 22

Let's just call it day 22.

rejection.

it's never easy to take. whether it's 6-grade boy crush that won't 'go' with you or those couple big jobs, this week, that could have made a sweet sweet difference in your life. the beginning of a real difference.

Sigh.

your brain knows it all 'part of the game' but your little heart just needs a second. especially when you get a taste. of what your heart REALLY wants to do. and then you go back to some day job where you're seen as a low level nothing.

it's not bitterness. it's not 'why me!!!!' it's just rejection.

but just as i'm typing this, i'm remembering someone told me once...

'it's not rejection. it's just not yet.'

just not yet.

just not yet.

ok.

my heart's brain can understand that. just not yet.

i guess that means, hold on. keep working. keep reaching. right?

so i'm grateful for remembering that. which came from writing this. which came from all of you. which came from being able to type. which came from being able to see. which came from being here. now. this. me. i guess i'm grateful for me. even when i do suck.

MAN!!!!!!! This got real hippy dippy all of a sudden.

elbow and smoke a fattie.

Comments

[The Domestic Goddess]

I'm grateful that we FINALLY SAW THE SUN today. Ahhhh...spring. I love this weather. Even better? We got the electric/gas bill and it is the lowest EVER due to the fact that the weather has been so AWESOME and we haven't needed heat or air! WOOHOO!!

[AJ]

Keep reaching. Your patience and persistence will be rewarded.

Hunger is the best sauce.

[doog]

Burn bright. Some days you have to throw in some furniture. Just stay warm, summer will come - it is, after all, invincible.

[qxjit]

Don't forget that "I suck" is nothing more than a believed thought. It has no reality of its own.

I'm grateful for the wonders of technology that enable me to connect with you all in the middle of a busy day, out of town. It's truly special for us to be able to come together.

[aliaschic]

Ack missed a few days! I am grateful that Annie has kept this going and that I get to hear her and everyone elses thanks! Also grateful for the sun FINALLY today, a good friend, lunch outside, girl talk, ice cream, sangria and a fracking great Saturday.

[Upquark]

Ah, rejection.

2 things.

One, they said yes to someone else and that might be a good thing for you, bad thing for them :) You never know.

2. Your 'yes' moment might be closer than you think. The best time to be 'open' is after a rejection. The hardest time to be 'open' is after a rejection... :)

Chin up, what what.

[alicein1derland]

You don't suck, Annie. THEY suck!!! Big ones.

Disapointment is hard, but valuable. When the prize does come your way, you will really appreciate it.

I'm so thankful that my deadline is over, there is a feeling of relief and accomplishment, and I can relax and have a big one myself.....

You rock, Annie. THEY suck!

[huy]

I'M grateful for you, which means you can't suck.

[enjonel]

I'm grateful you will hang in there because you are tough and talented and bright and you will find the right place to be at the right time. You were given a taste of your big dream and that's more than a lot of people get. Take that taste and roll it around in your mouth like a fine wine. Suffer through the little job. You're reaching for a dream. Keep reaching.

[Robin Dahlberg]

I'm grateful for being almost stupidly optimistic.

When an opportunity I think is the right thing at the right time doesn't come through, I say to myself (sometimes half-mockingly) "well, clearly I was meant for greater things."

Somebody else needed those big jobs more than you did, and that leaves you open for something even better.

Big hippy dippy dork and proud of it.

[nashira]

I'm grateful for being able to learn from my bitchiness, too... Thanks for being so cool, Annie.

[KatieKatie]

I'm grateful for smoking fatties. ha ha ha ha ha!