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experiment day 7

So it's been a week...and I gotta say the vomit meter on my head space is declining!! While rinsing broccoli, I decided my mind is like the colander in the sink. The positive stuff flows right thru, and the negative sits at the bottom. Glaring at me with its judgmental eyes. And then I stare right back. Chewing on it. Giving it worth, while the positive flows right down the drain.

So you're sharing of grats is really helping me! Any ideas on stirring it up?

Let's see....

'Brian, give me a letter?'

'um...P.'

'Give me a number?'

'um...6..'

Okay. 6 things I'm grateful for that start with P.

-pants
-postal service
-puppies
-palm trees
-pools
-peace

um...Now you go.

experiment day 6

Today, I got this...

Dearest Family and
>> Friends:
>> April 29, 2008
>>
>> Today is the six month remembrance for my dear
>> Daddy. It's Serbian
>> tradition to have a special gathering at six months
>> and light a candle
>> for that person for the whole day. Since I'm so far
>> away I thought
>> I'd send this message to you in hopes of having some
>> kind of gathering
>> for my Dad. If you have a moment in your day today
>> to light a candle
>> for him it would mean a lot to me. And if there is
>> something in
>> particular you remember about him today, whatever it
>> is, send it to
>> me...I would really cherish it.
>> Even with all the new and wonderful changes in my
>> life, I won't lie,
>> it's still hard and my tears are frequent, every
>> moment my mind
>> wanders it's to thoughts of him. So I thank you all
>> for the love and
>> support you give me. Monday (April 28) was his
>> birthday and today
>> (April 29) is six months. So it's a double
>> remembrance to my
>> Dad....Mile Grubor.
>>
>> Love,
>> Sasha

Dear Sash,

I remember when you're Dad would come to our dance recitals. Year after year. Stand in the back after the show, letting you have the spotlight. Letting others give you the hugs and the spotlights 'they' needed. And then, after all settled, he would walk up. With the click of his cool boots. Put his hand on your sholder. And hug you as proud as if it's the first time he saw you dance...and steal the stage. You were loved. And still are. Cancer sucks. Balls. But it can't take any of these memories.

Today
11:07pm
I'm grateful for her Dad.
And for the reconnection I have had with her.
Which is partically from this blog.
So then I'm thankful for this blog.
Which then makes me thankful to Wil and Shane for getting this whole hot mess started.

Elbow and candle.

experiment day 5

Today
12:09am (so really its 9 minutes late).

I'm grateful for the full day I had today that kept me away from my computer and in the trenches of my real life.

Elbow and bitty boopity boo.

experiment day 4

Today.
Day 4.
1:09pm.

I'm grateful for...

and

experiment day 3

In trying to think of something "clever" to post...I came up with like 50 things I'm grateful for. Humm.. 'For waking up.' No, that's not clever enough. 'For the jasmine flower I just smelled.' Naw. No story.

Maybe I'm grateful for the reminder to stop trying to be so g.d. 'clever' and just be.

Yeah, I like that one.

Ok. I'm grateful for that. And for the other 50 I came up with.

elbow and see ya.

experiment day 2

Today. Day 2
April 25 8:08 am

I am grateful for:
-all your amazing comments that made my day yesterday. shit you are all profound!!!!!!
-my sleeping husband whose feet are sticking out of the bed.
-the 78 year old actor who asked me if I wanted 'the truth or the real story?'
-journey.
-my friend michaela.
-the excitement of trying new material in a show tonight.
-the students in my class.
-did I mention journey?
-the recommitment to the gym this morning. (eh--motivation help please!)
-the mother's day cards I already bought--which means I might just send 'em on time.
-ben gibbard on the cover of 'Paste.'
-the fact that Wil is gonna do a show with me soon. (hint hint).
-the fact I am not at a greasy spoon waiting on assholes right now.
-being teachable.
-journey.

Elbow and Send.

**(this picture was taken overlooking the sunrise at Poipu Beach in Kauai. It is truly one of the most beautiful things I have ever witnessed. If you ever go, you must hike up past the Hilton, thru the hardly marked trail, and up the cliff. There, my soul was repaired).

***(I dare you to listen to 'Seperate Ways' and not get a little rock star in your car while a truckdriver makes fun of you. Go on. Try it. And report back. 'If you must goooooooooo.oh oh ooooooo, I wish you luck.' Ah, simple).

experiment

I cut my hair today.
I colored my hair today.
I bought a cheap sweatshirt.
I listened to 'lazy eye' 5 times.
I wrote.
I drove.
I taught class.
I drank tea.

And then I got an idea.

Will you do something with me?

Share with me.

What you're grateful for.

For 30 days.

I don't know why, but I need it. Cuz my head is filling with vomit and Smith's songs.

Even if its just one person.

I'll share something. And you share back. That's it. A word. A story. A picture. A complaint. A song. Your name. Anything.

This isn't some new age Oprah 'A-HA' movement. Or some manifest your dreams deal-e-o. It's just old fashion 'let's be positive' junk.

Let's see where it leads.

Day One.
Today.
April 23. I mean...April 24. 1:39 AM.
I'm grateful for tap dancing.

Elbow and Send.

invite

Hey.

Just to plug the final two weeks of the show I'm in:

What: Groundlings Suimsuit Edition (sketch/improv show)
When: Fridays 8pm. Saturdays 8pm. 10pm. thru April 19.
Where: Groundlings Theatre, 7307 Melrose Ave., W. Hlywd
Tickets: (323) 934-4747 or here

It's a rad cast, a rad theater, and a rad show.

Bye.